Two days just passed so swiftly.. it’s Monday again omg! … I’m fully indulged with jofyulness of holiday.. i don’t think i’m able to go back Singapore again.. although i’m fully abandoned my fave mmorpg, but sometimes i do missed chatting with them (warkop).. i heard from somene that my current guild is going to disband sooner or later, i’m not sure about this rumour but i think it’s quite obvious.. 3 class leaders applied to other guilds, i’m understand the reason behind it, that we’re currently stagnant on our position, unable to move on, and yet people that willing to spend time, efforts and gold think that we just lost a massive hard core raiding people in our guild.
Disbanding guild is not a good option. I think we need to have a restructuring, gearing up our new members, and progressing thorough the new instance. It may requires our patient and alot of efforts, but i think they should wait until the hardcores came back from indo.. Heard that notious is having a massive recruitment on certain classes that deemed and proved to be slacking from raid attendance. That’s a good step movement, i concur.
Saturday 22nd July 2006, I’m terribly bored at home that moment, in the morning my father asked me to accompany him and my bro to bekasi, to visit something which i’m not very interested about .. i rejected it and felt a bit regret. However, the good news is, iin also asking me to go to the church that evening. Better off instead of staying at home I.M.O
So we met at Binus University at 5pm, and move on straightly to Taman Anggek, went there only for buying a starbucks’s java chip chocolate etc etc. Personally i thought the brewer is not making that thing “standardized” to any other starbucks spreaded across continents. The taste is different (too sweet). Me and iin find a place to sit and drink, after a while iin saw a group of ladies that she’s familiar with, and i do know some of them but I’m not sure which one is which. (mei fang mei ying etc etc). this world is full of surprises… it is not?
Right after that we think we’re gonna late for the church thingy. I’m nervous as hell; she (iin) picked up her sisters and brother together in one Taft. It was fun I can tell.. my head is spinning around because I was sitting on the back, and wasn’t getting used to iin’s driving style. We came to the church and say a prayer. After overwhelmed by a long session of self denying, finally we go outside and hunt for the foods… yumm.. they’re (church mates) quite friendly I suppose, their attitude towards me as a stranger is unique, it’s not likely as what I’ve expected earlier (being ignored, etc etc). they recalled my name very fast and yet I hardly remembered their name.. we’re talking like we know each other for such a long time.. btw the clock is ticking fast. Time to go home and It’s somewhat outrageous since I ride my bro’s motorcycle from my home to muara karang… alone.. and yet it was very late that time.. yay…
Sunday 23rd July 2006 morning, when I woke up I saw a short message from renny, asking whether I can go together with her and agnes today or not. Instantly I replied yes, and I said I’ll pick her up asap. I called Hansen (猪肉) to come along also.. we watched a movie called “The Lake House”; my personal thought concerning this movie, hmm.. I think it’s a bit hoax and fake. It’s impossible to be true (It’s a movie lol how’s tat suppose to be real?) and the ending is hanging just like that.. oh yes, I met Arie brata’s parents and sis, I met Melissa, jiban and robby there. Like I said previously.. this world comprises a lot of surprises yes? Arie’s family seems fine on the surface, nothing much changed since I left to Taiwan.. his parents owned a car repair workshop same as my dad’s profession, as far as I know their place got severely damaged by the riots that were protesting that time, 1998.
15 mins after we met robby, a call from yulia shocked me much; she said she’s now having a car accident near the toll area to karawaci, her place. I offered a hand but she said she’s ok, her mother and cousins are coming to fetch her from the police office to her house. I called her several times but it was in vain. She said she got no battery at that moment and after I got home, around 00:30AM, I sms’d her, tell her to reply me as soon as she got home or read my message later on. She called me around 01:45AM, that time I was asleep, tried to get up and listen to her voice, she’s crying sadly, I tried to comfort her as much as I can, and this insane thought came out of nowhere.. “relax I’ll be there in 30mins” uhhhh shiett!! LoL I wasn’t really planning to go to karawaci that time, it’s vapid thought I presume, and with all courage I get up, get dressed up, and called Iroh to open the gate for me silently.. I’m afraid wake them up (parents, bros). I don’t know what the purpose of doing this is, but I’m still purely care about her, I wanted to be with her side.. so.. ya… that was the bravest action ever in my life.. (yet it was triggered by love! Huahahaha disgusting …. lol) I’m using benz 2523, the highest speed was around 130km/hour, the road is so clear and empty, i can reach there within 20mins of time..I reached there and I saw her pallor face, hoping for a hug.. so I comforted her, telling her that things gonna be all right, etc etc.. (别想歪)
I barely can’t sleep that night, I watched some pictures inside her hp, wrote a draft message on her cell phone, but I don’t know whether she’s reading it right now or not. sigh.. in the morning I feel sick. Very tired. Exhausted. The journey to my office (mampang) took 2 and a half hour from her place. Well.. I can understand coz it’s Monday morning yo!.. so I didn’t went straight to the office (since it’s 3 in one), and I changed to a motorcycle… I reached there JUST on time, around 8:50AM.. haha…
It is very nice of him, my boss, the way he treated me as an employee.. lol, he let me go home early since I got nothing else to do at the office, he gave me several information about the company that I’m currently working on btw, gave me a speaker to listen to his DvD movie about 2 years celebration of what wad I forgot. I downloaded new version of Winamp but I’d prefer using VLC media player.. I asked a permission to take the book back home for reference, and he said ok. So it’s a book concerning the history of machine lubricate. I read the prefaces and I think I’m interested on reading it further.
I came back early and called my ex, but she forbid me to go there ‘cause she needs rest, I knew it. I can’t force her to meet me though, and there you go.. my hope for rebuilding a broken heart vanished as soon as I called my other friends looking for some advice. She told me to move on, don’t think about her again. I give an excuse as I’m still can’t forget her too soon, but she replied me with few sentences and it’s hurt me most. In fact that my ex can live without my presence, and if she really has somewhat feeling towards me, she said she’ll respond to me thoroughly. And she further added the reason that it is not that I’m unable to forget her, but me myself would think not to forget her.. she told me the truth… although it’s bitter but.. our relationship is over. Get over it right now!!!!!!!!!
My future planning:
Making both recommendation, and resignation letter
Further reading on my bro’s books and make a 2 pages of summary and personal thought (real estate riches’s Robert kiyosaki)
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