赐我力量

我这几天脑筋在想不明在搞什么鬼，虽然我知道下一个步骤要做的是什么，可是没有一个实现出结果。自己认为事情，学校方案都可以托到十二月底左右才开始做， 但另一个我呢，却正好矛盾，劝告自己先把事清赶紧做好才对。我基本上已经没有什么激情于这SOA方案的事，懒惰和借口满街都是。话说回来，每个人都有懒惰 的一面，而我呢，恰恰是为自己的懒惰不断寻找自以为十分合理借口的一个人。。

想到未来我会有点怕怕，找不到工作因技能不足，语言沟通不 良，被人家排斥并且看不起，我想自己创业也还没有哪个胆量，实话说我自己也没什么经验，没尝试过失败的滋味，而且凭什么资本呢? 我不想再靠我父母钱来生活… 未来目的只有一个, 取经验于本国, 过两三年后, 返老乡创业! 未来计划还模糊, 但我想, 人生要有目的. 世上无难事, 只怕有心人.

愿老天保佑.

我今天看这很不错的短片, 是在讲些主要今日学生的特征, 他们需要学什么东西, 他们的梦想, 他们每个人生过程当中会遇到什么变化, 全都体现出在于这短短的四分钟的短片. 很不错. 的确是个独特地创造力.

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Case done!

I’ve finally finished up this editing this mofo so called “Case Book.” heard from my boss it’ll be used for new /senior planners to get on the right track, by tracing their records of CASE (idk case means but i think calls, appointments, and idk the S and E, whatever…) and yep.. i wasted around 25 blank papers trying to align here and there, figuring the quotes, seems tweaking here a little bit will have some impact on the other side.. really annoying. really… now i realize that creating something new from the beginning is more easy… somehow though.. compared to fixing things that already existed…. btw sometimes to be creative is also pretty hard.. i need to see some inspiration here and there.. 😀 and when i don’t feel “inspired” by seeing things, I prolly get frustrated..

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Contribute

This content has been edited using Adobe Contribute CS3, i just downloaded the CS3 master collection and this gay software requires 10 gigs of my hdd space … zzz … and uh.. i just realised that macromedia flash / dreamweaver is
included in this version.. (coz of the Adobe acquisition of macromedia back in 2005)… so.. the important question is, am i able to exploit the full potential of this software? (cost US$2.5k fyi!!!).. we’ll see then…

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R3T4RD3D

I’ve been self-studying asp.net for about 3weeks now, and what i can tell is things are getting more and more complicated.. idk maybe i don’t concentrate enough as i’m farming gold while watching the tutorial videos. lol.. the result of gold farmin is quite obvious, my gold deposit increased from 1k (last 2weeks) now 7k, and btw … oh, yesterday i got a 2.5k gold deal for US$175, i need to think how to market the rest of the 4k, maybe to the old gold purchaser or idk perhaps guildy?

on the other hand, stupid SFEN and RPIS’s SOA project still confuse my mind.. even until now… i gathered like maybe hundreds of E-Books / articles regarding SOA, and none of them are read… yet. AHHHh!!!! gaddamn… what can i do next is to hope that i can stay away from my pc for the next few weeks, and concentrate on reading the gad forsaken’s article at the public library or SIM ones… i know it sounds impossible for me to do such a… idk what thing..

however, i saw some of the changes / alignment of my jobscope yesterday, data sorting, entry, some dull and boring stuff but at least i was excited; making fliers for my manager to promote certain products until in the afternoon when i handed in the completed fliers, he said that i need to make a call again for the next 2 weeks.. gaddman.. i understand that the 3k p.m scheme is ending soon, but i also can’t help it, most of the Singaporeans are afraid of the term “insurance agent” even though some of the financial institutions called it nicely (Financial Personal Consultant, Financial Planner, etc) but it still refer and carry the same gaddamn perception (thick skin, outdoor work, aggressively promote products, paid according to commission, cold calls, sales sales sales and sales figure..) well some person is a r3t4rd enough to think that FP/FC/PFC is a good job (well it is), and even put it on the heading of the resume as a job objective … well that’s me.. lol..

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客观之态

莫非我总理之态已有所改变？冷淡无情的样子让我不适，心底感觉出被排斥似的，想要解雇我的感觉，好像这是我本身感觉到惭愧至极的状况，当我未承认自己错时，心理就好像正在挣扎，脑筋不停的想理由，想后果，想怎么表达，想他们听到我这一句会有什么反应，会不会这样，会不会那样，烦到不能集中精神于工作业务的方面，心理不停的在怪自己活该，真的不知到如何是好，当我吃完午餐，我在想狡辩有关这件事，可是我后来想。。不值得去牵累到任何人，我脑里那仅仅几小时真的快要爆似的。

到最后我还是承认自己做错事。我老板不知如何面对我，他连跟我眼光接触都没有，说我自己要和受害者讲。我被他骂了一顿，我无话可说，只好好好的听他讲故事。哈哈。讲完了，我心里感觉舒畅，压力已全消失似的。到最后呢，我领悟到这件事也算是一种宝贵的经验。我总理劝告我说最好反省自己，知错一定要改进。我就说好好好。他去楼下刚回来时，然后再次问我有没有跟上上一次发生的事情有关，我就说没有，发誓。真的。他就说好。

今日我总理和我一起去吃饭，上天桥时又提到那件事，我那时领悟到； 人做错事所带来的不好印象，人家难以容忍，并且会不知不觉地牢牢记在心里。每次讲这个人时，他都会以不好的观点方面来判断，而且呢，好的一方面很难会被提到。这就是所谓“人生观念”的原理。而这所谓观念是从主观带来的影响。做好人呢，一定要以客观之态来判断所有一切事实。

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Ubuntu BIOS installation setup – unable to detect wireless keyboard/mouse input..

This must be the silliest thing i’ve experienced..

So today i’ve burned this ubuntu-7.10-server-i386 on my laptop, mounted it, tried to reboot it on my laptop, changed the BIOS and it was perfect, flawless pre-installation checking without any failure on the MD5 checksum…

However, i’ve never thought of being unable to choose any options on the BIOS setup installation, just because the computer can’t detect my “WIRELESS” microsoft keyboard and mouse… silly isn’t it… i tried to plug in my old keyboard, but no response as well, i reseted, and still no response.. (stupid headway keyboard)..

/sigh
what should i do next?

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XP Random Restart – Overheating Problem

I’ve read several IT forums and journals regarding this so called “XP random restart problem”. I’ve noticed this about 2-3months ago and yet until now i thought it was 3xRAMs compatibility problem, but in fact the CPU was abit overheated. At first i thought this was just normal occurrence (random restart), kinda frustrated when i’m in the middle of playing a game…

Until 2 days ago, i just bought a 500gigs 3.5” seagate internal hdd, and when i was going to mount up the driver into my computer casing, i found out there’re hella lots of dust sitting on my fan… i cleaned it up from the outer side, and didn’t plan to open up the nuts and bolts coz i got no screwdriver.. (actually my cousin bought b4 but i’m lazy to ask and lazy to clean it up)… but eventually i borrowed my cousin’s screwdriver in order to tighten my hdd position.. erm.. after tightening my hdd, i opened the fan and i just noticed the CPU sink was full of friggin dust… gad damn that was so nasty.. lol…

so i realised all these days my XP random restart problem was a CPU overheating problem…. sigh..

oh FYI, after i cleaned up the dust on the CPU sink, my cpu temp dropped down dramatically from 48C to42C!! (you can use this useful sofware to get to know ur CPU temperature :: http://www.almico.com/speedfan.php )

Goodluck and /Cheers

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凌晨3:00在吃什么？

凌晨三点我在吃什么？今晚我有去跑步大概十五分钟左右，跑完我就立即洗澡便穿上睡衣准备要睡觉，可是我睡不着，肚子咕噜咕噜叫，实在受不了。我听到外面有声音，看门缝隙有一道明亮的光线，我就知道我表妹在那里搜索东西吃。。哈哈。。我就开门然后问他要不要煮泡面来吃，咱们一包分成两个人吃，可是他说不要，我就自己来切菜加上个鸡蛋来调味，准备要煮一包。吃完看时钟显示三点整，她上完厕所就进房间里睡觉。她只吃了我的剩下麦片饼干而已。

吃完我就写个博克咯。。
靠我明天有早课。该要睡觉了。。大家晚安！

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