Prayer of Fortitude..

28/7/08, 2pm-3pm.. 1male (sounds like manager).. So my first interview today with fujitsu was quite fcuked and I think it’s a disgrace for me because I simply can’t elaborate good enough on my final thesis.. (gad damn SOA..) but the interviewer asked a lot regarding my previous experience on community content management systems, and I told him that i’ve only experienced on its requirements analysis, implementation, testing and maintenance part, but very little knowledge on development and programming imo.. Well, after elaborating this and that on req analysis, testing methods, BVA etc, he said that my testing skills quite good and he’ll only consider me as a software tester… But not a hardcore java platform developer…i’ve told him my about netbeans as my IDE but apparently still.. Insufficient technical skills I must admit.. Well.. Since it’s a very serious interview. at least i’ve gained something…

28/7/08, 4pm-5pm.. My 2nd interview with avantus training was ok, got 2 ppl interviewing me instead. Both are females (mid 30s) and apparently they’re quite interested in my ability to teach software skills using mandarin as a medium.. Lol.. Idk maybe I got my 2nd interview sometime in the future, further assessing my presentation skill perhaps… Overall speaking i’d say this time i was able to represent myself wholely, and also confidently to the interviewers.. and it looks like they’re quite impressed.. looks like.. but i don’t know whether it’s fake or not.. lol..

And I have received a call from my job agent, she’s asking how’s my interview with fujitsu but I said it in a more frank manner.. The developer job isn’t quite suit me well.. So I asked her whether there’re any other openings for me and she said that she’ll surely get back to me though.. Okay then.. That’s it for todae.. All bad news but Ahh!! I just got my good news comin in.. Shariah just called me and she said my letter of completion will be ready in next few days.. Landed PR here I come!!…

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Shadow Word: Pain

Lots of extensions for my htc are yet to be explored and downloaded, and applications that i’ve heard of are mostly downloadable with incredibly inexpensive price, compared to its benefits for users that require the service (such as myself of course). However, it seems that it requires one to go tedious of layers, such that it will eventually discourages the user to even deal the transaction.. I’d love to find alternatives and hoping for some cracked version that’re available online instead… Well, searching for those is like treasure hunting. Some sites do appear legit at first glance, but after some clicks you’ll figured out that it’s yet another bogus site.. Well.. The most reliable ones i’d say are those apps that are posted at infamous torrent sites such as the piratebay, mininova or even demonoid..

Ok I got 2 interviews later in the afternoon and I just hoped that they’ll have some good offer for me.. Quite lots of ppl impressed when they see my resume.. (me gets flattered..) and i guess it’s now depends on how good my interview / interpersonal skill is. Mistakes are bound to be exist and it’s an inevitable fact that most fresh grads do kinda stutters and mumbling in front of their future employees. (can’t get any answer and humming for 30secs.. lol) err.. Having no such work experience before (in the Full time IT field I mean), I guess it’ll be hard to make up such a story that will impress the interviewers.. Well perhaps some ppl won’t agree with me.. of course it’s good for them but I really can’t do much bullshit.. Kek..

Oh gosh I just came out from the aussie high commision, bad news is that they won’t consider my application since I got no singapore identification or pass.. (I have returned my student pass a month ago and currently holding svp).. They told me to go to my home country (indonesia) and apply from there instead.. That’s a friggin blow for me though.. damnit.. now I think there’s a need for me to revamp the whole schedule plan… Gad damn ridiculous….. What should I do now eh? Should I return to my home country and apply from there? Or should I cancel my whole trip to aussie? Or perhaps went to JB to extend my svp again? Sigh.. Things are just getting from bad to worse.. even worse to.. more.. Pain.. indeed..

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澳大利亚旅游签证

寻找个修理 .rar 的一直无法找到，都是那种试版的。。我硬盘空间还剩下差不多250GB, 还足于下载别的东西。如今用了星河宽带服务，真感觉很令人失望，这下载 BT 的速度的确有限唉！最高也能达30kb/sec，这种情况下我就别想去浏览什么网页了。连MSN都联不上，最好晚上趁大家睡觉时才开始下。。哦对了，我朋友刚发个短信给我，叫我礼拜六来帮他搬家，不懂搬到哪里去。爱哦。。撑死我啦。这几天都吃的很饱，爽快啊。。几乎每天都有美食可以享用。。拜五晚上跟我朋友一起去吃免费的 Challet BBQ, 礼拜六上午吃一包泡面，晚上还有跟我台湾同学根枝和文德吃烧烤于 Serangoon Circus 哪里。。吃完我和他们两个去见一个也是台湾朋友，詹敬铭。（写错名字请恕宽容）他来这边是要渡蜜月的，不知不觉他已经结婚半年之久唉！我问他为何不生子，他就说，他要儿子属牛。我才发觉到他的确是有点迷信之态。只不过，也好啦，咱们四个人就去咖啡店附近饮酒，我喝茶唉！喝茶养身！喝得痛快唉！嘿嘿。吃完饭一定要饮茶的！我可不要长得像根枝一般胖啊。呵呵。美食不能天天都能吃的。好了啦！我要泡减肥茶去了。再过八个钟头一定会有反应。等不及

唉！总觉得最近我越来越懒散，再这样下去可大事不妙啊！。。好。改变计划由明天开始。早上七点一定要起，准备去澳大利亚大使馆那里办理旅游签证。搞完了就直接去面谈。。面谈搞定了之后就和朋友约好时间去健身。。拜二还是没有计划呢。。

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Euphoric Moment

It’s a sunday afternoon, almost evening time now.. Kinda perfect weather and all for a slow jog so… here I am at my fave bishan park having a small convo with my fave smart phone, listening to my fave songs, walk along the pathway trying to clear my doubts, thoughts, and not forgetting to appreciate the nature’s call.. Surrounded with evergreen trees with mild wind blowing its fallin leaves, humid, not too hot not too cold temperature, solid rocks and pathways, blooming flowers with its unique smell and such… Wow! It’s a kind of euphoric moment I should say…

Quiet moment in a park wondering what’s the purpose of life.. (yet again) lol.. Sigh.. Life.. What’s life? Simply i’d say life’s all about numerous choices and decisions that have to be made.. And after decisions have been made, it’s time to hope and pray. I’ll leave pray alone because praying, in my opinion, is simply an action of gaining one’s selfconfident by talking to someone that has more power than himself, hoping that he’ll be there to assist just in case if anything happened. It’s merely a spiritual guidance I should say, and if someone does have enough confidence, he himself will understand why he doesn’t believe in it anymore.

Okay, just now when we ate our lunch together, my friend asked why he saw ppl burning papers at night, a situation that can be seen almost everynight at taiwan, and my response to that at first was to pray to the gods, but he said that it doesn’t make any sense, and I was agree to his opinion, and in the end it’s all a matter of cultures and common practices only..

Hope, on the other hand, gives human kind a sense of worthiness in life. To quote my friend’s sayings after he bought a toto (somekind of lottery), he claims that it will increases and motivates his morale, giving him a sense of hope. A hope that my brother once said, lesser chance compared to one’s struck by lightning.. Well, I should say that it’s a false hope.. I don’t know..

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DX2028AU Tablet PC

A brief specification of my new tablet pc.. which cost me around S$700… Well if i think about it once again, it’s really not worth the money just to spend $1600 on return airtickets to sydney.. for god’s sake i can purchase two of these spec’s tablet pc already… still very confuse whether i should go ahead or just forget about it.. Although the ticket most likely will be paid by my parents, but still.. knowing the amount to be spent on the air tickets alone can ponder me three times… 

take a further insight on my tablet pc spec @ here

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A Leap of Faith

One big leap ahead.. One matter at least has been successfully settled, my friend was once said that 船到橋頭自然直.. Perhaps this wasn’t the classic case of the phrase, half true instead.. Without my effort the boat will never go straight.. Human interruption was therefore required for most of the cases, accept the fact that our destiny lies in our own hand, not on god’s hand.. maybe for some of the faithful ppl this might sounds contradict.. I’m not saying that we can’t rely on god, but it’s always’ve been cases that people made lots of failure excuses from it, and try to blame the nature instead of fixing the real prblm.

My friend said an example of how nargis cyclone and eventually death of a thousands can be prevented earlier.. For simple minded person maybe he/she will interpret that it’s some kind of a god’s wrath or perhaps it’s a sign of punishment bla bla idk. But smart people view it differently. Maybe they can’t find exactly what causes it to happen (perhaps global warming) or maybe we should wonder why the myanmar’s junta didn’t take any precautions from the neighbor country’s heed?

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Velvet Schemes..

Yesterday I have posted my master room ads on one of the most famous chinese website, they called it as a chinese singapore forum, shi cheng lun tan. (獅城論壇) it’s basically where most china ppl gather around to talk and gradually more and more people has recognize it as a place where ppl who doesn’t know each other can post miscellaneous things from looking for a girl/boy friend, room for rent to selling goods or services etc etc, all that’s matter in almost daily life wil be placed as a big section on the header. At first it’s a friggin big headache to read the postings. Idk why chinese ppl love to see small fonts packed together with insufficient spaces in between.. What troubled me most is the flashy icons and advertisements prolly.. I think it’s time to get my free mozilla add ons adblocker download. It really annoys me.. Esp. At btchina.net.. After you clicked on the download torrent button, a window just popped up on the middle like it’s somekind of a “tease me” button.. Kek..

Ok maybe I can understand that they wanted to earn little money perhaps to cover their expenses for their maintaining the site.. Yah and I think their ads is worth the click given these 3 years I’ve downloaded tons of movies and lots of other useful stuff from their site.. And uh.. After keep on bumping my post for almost 2 hours, i’ve got hundreds of views but little replies.. And after several attempts of modying my post here and there, I think I already familiarized the interfaces and the structures of the forum already.. I just realised that your mindset really plays a decisive and important role in determining your behaviour… When your mind refused to say that you’re able to make it, then you’ll really can’t make it. But sometimes overconfident leads to failure as well… I screwed big time on the prev sfen final.. Sighs…

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Grim Vengeance..

Heavy rain’s pouring down my mood to wake up early this morning, and here I am standing cluelessly surrounded by waves of people rushing because they’ve already late for their work.. Surrounded … it’s almost a situation where you’re forced to stand face to face with a different ppl.. Gota love rush hours badly… Oh btw yesterday I had a rather short convo with my brother.. he showed his room in aussie, and said that he’s renting that rom for 360AUD perweek… I introduced this roomsdb site to him and hoped that he’ll find a better price offer with suitable room condition.. It’s always’ve been the problem..

Accomodation: the fact that it’s one of our three primary needs and the fact that it’s costly indeed.. I have received 3smses this morning, all of them are asking whether the master room’s still available or not. It’s a different response I’ve experienced compared to previous days.. Maybe it’s because of the different marketing approach i’ve adopted.. I put the face value for $600 for bishan master rrom.. Heheh…

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Blaaaaa…

Today’s so tired because I hadn’t enough sleep last night, was previously tinkering abt directory listing for around 2 hours and such.. I tried to put a few lines of .htaccess script but doesn’t seem to work.. I tried to contact the live chat support and then he told me that I wasn’t hosted on a linux server, but iis server instead..

So after I add few code lines on the web.config file, it appears very ugly, so I searched around for design modification and managed to found a very beautiful template for my directory listings… Modified abit on php codes and i’m done.. It looks professional and way much better compared to server generated ones… But this mornin I kanna farked by one of the job portal agent.. To quote her sayings ::

“???? You are the first candidate who just simply give an link instead of sending in the transcript in MS Word format. If you are interested in the position, pls do the necessary, thank you.”

Shieet I think she got angry.. I thought that when I gave the link she’ll take a look and feel somewhat impressed.. Sighs lol.. I never thought i’d receive this kind of response before.. Aioh.. Very sleepy.. Hopefully for today i’ll be able to go through.. but heck I care.. I’ll just make lesser calls for today..

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Inner Focus

I just got scolded for talking during working hours.. I know it’s my fault but the way he scolded me is like friggin idk what to describe.. But I believe in the future he’ll surely got punched in da face by someone.. And I can foresee who’s that person is.. Lol..

I think i’ll need to return back for at least a month.. My svp is expired on 4 august and i’ll be gone by then.. Lots of problem needs to be settled by then.. At least i’ll need omeone to stay at our master room… Friggin results haven’t even out yet and i’m here wondering what am I doing next.. My brother asked if I wanted to go aussie and find employment there instead but I said I can’t.. Simply can’t..

Thinking of quitting this job once and forall and be more focused on searching for more opportunities out there but my heart kept saying that at least i’ll need a job to cover my expenses here in sgpore. Parents aren’t givng me any money nomore and my savings are getting lesser than ever… When all hopes seems lost.. I’ll just simply chill down for 5mins and trying to encourage myself.. Ya perhaps 挫折生勇氨,困境生智慧…

Talking about lucky.. Well I just realised that if you never give it a try, they won’t even able to give you chances.. So at least for now perhaps i’ll put aside 3dollars each time or a week to buy toto… Heheh… Although at first I was thinking that i’m just wasting money, but if you really think about it, chances are not there if you never try.. So im not encouraging myself to become a gambler, instead i’ll just put aside a relatively small portion of my daily pocket money to purchase a probability of becoming a millionaire.. Although I even know myself that it won’t happen, but who knows?

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